Sometimes, I get scared that history will repeat itself. And because of that, I get fearful in the present and hold on tighter.
I know logically, realistically, it isn't true--but at the same time, I can't shake the past from my memories.
And if it happened once or twice, whose to say it won't happen a third time.
Even though know I know WHY things happened--it doesn't always make it any easier. Sometimes knowing the reason behind things, doesn't help at all. You think it would.
Oh well. Sometimes as much as you want to control things. To have time stand still. You just can't. You have to accept things will happen.
However, even though I know I should accept things--I just don't want to. It makes me sad.