I blame Karen Filippelli...

Again,

I blame Karen Filippelli for all that is wrong.

I blame her for...

Worrying about people I haven't seen, much less talked to you in years.

That when it is finally cold out--it still doesn't snow. I want to see some snow.

Crying during the movie tonight.

My headache.

And other things as well!

I just hate worrying. And I hate how it sneaks up on you....and with me, it just encompasses everything. And when I hear that someone is upset or sad or frustrated, I just start to worry. I sincerely wish sometimes I can turn the worrying/caring part off--and just well...relax. I know. I know. People will say it makes me...well me. But sometimes, it would be so nice to be not exactly me. A new me. A 6.0 version of me. One that worried less. I like the caring aspect--but maybe, I am just too sensitive.

I don't know. And the worst is, I never like to admit to the person that I am worried about them--because it sounds silly, especially if I don't talk to them often. And then I start to worry. And then my stomach begins to churn. Inevitably, I can't sleep. But the worst thing about worrying about people in your past, is that I start to regret things that happened in the past as well.

I wish that I was less judging...or nicer. Or more open. But mostly, I wished I was more vocal. I never was. I hate confrontations. I still do. They tend to me cry. But I do wish that I didn't regret things. And that I worry less.

History Repeating Itself...

Sometimes, I get scared that history will repeat itself. And because of that, I get fearful in the present and hold on tighter.

I know logically, realistically, it isn't true--but at the same time, I can't shake the past from my memories.

And if it happened once or twice, whose to say it won't happen a third time.

Even though know I know WHY things happened--it doesn't always make it any easier. Sometimes knowing the reason behind things, doesn't help at all. You think it would.

Oh well. Sometimes as much as you want to control things. To have time stand still. You just can't. You have to accept things will happen.

However, even though I know I should accept things--I just don't want to. It makes me sad.

Valentine's Day...

Just like me,

My doll's love Valentine's Day as well.

Here are some pictures of them celebrating Valentine's Day.

Sophie and Noelle are working at the bakery counter:

Emma is taking Sonali's and Chrissa's order at the Soda Shop.

Valentine's Day

Stage 2 of my Valentine's Day Project is complete.

That is all for now!

-Jordyn

Wishes

When you wish upon a star,

Makes no difference who you are

Anything your heart desires

Will come to you

If your heart is in your dream

No request is too extreme

When you wish upon a star

As dreamers do

Fate is kind

She brings to those who love

The sweet fulfillment of

Their secret longing

Like a bolt out of the blue

Fate steps in and sees you through

When you wish upon a star

Your dreams come true

I wish...

I wish...

I wish...

Busy Busy Busy

So, tomorrow will be a busy, busy day!

I know we won't have a delay opening tomorrow (which we did have that was incredibly nice today!)

I also plan on besides working--I need to straighten up, particularly the kitchen. The winter just makes me super lazy. But tomorrow afternoon--I plan on baking Valentine cookies. I have all the ingredients, and I can't wait to use my pink, purple and red food coloring and sugars for the heart cookies. I think I'll bring them to work on Friday.

I just want to bake. I could actually care less if I eat it--and usually with THOSE sugar cookies, they are so sweet that I have no desire to eat one of them until at least 24 hours after I make it.

I also plan on making my doll valentine's tomorrow. And work on phase 2 of my Valentine Surprise for everyone else! but...psssssssssttt...I can't reveal it here. I just can't wait--I love making people happy--so I am hoping to make lots of people happy inside.


Hmmmmm...tomorrow WILL be a busy day!

14 days of Pink

Well...since I decided that Valentine's Day isn't that far away--and it is one of my favorite holidays, I am going to try to wear pink every day starting Feb. 1st.

Right now, I am on day two wearing a brown skirt, a pink shirt and a pink necklace.

Yesterday I wore jeans with brown and pink heart t-shirt and pink socks.

Tomorrow...I need to figure out something for then. Maybe my pink earrings?

Oh...and last night I watched the Office and I had a warm and fuzzy quote from that episode that I just had to share. It made me tear up a bit. It made my heart melt and just made me all mushy.

Jim: So what did he say? Was it my fault?
Pam: Yeah. He said that you told him how much you love me. About how you feel when I walk in a room, and about how, you've never doubted for a second that I'm the woman you want to spend the rest of your life with. I guess he's never felt that with my mom, even at their best.
Jim: You ok?
Pam: Yeah.